(January 8, Friday) Whether it is by yourself or others, emotional pain is given to you. It is not some sort of trait we inherited; rather, it is something we inevitably have to deal with. Today I was watching a very dramatic TV show with my friends and one of the episodes happened to be … Continue reading College Day 113 – Pain Is Given
(November 10, Tuesday) Today's goal: Believe it or not, my goal was to socialize as little as possible. Since I had been feeling depressed since Saturday, I just didn't feel open for chatting. The thought of having to take my supplements and remember to do so every day and week gave me anxiety. That's the very … Continue reading College Day 85 – Bye Supplements
(November 8th, Sunday) Today: Still depressed from the day before, I resorted to my daily dosage of distractions: video games. I put my "social life" to the lowest degree possible. I'm tired of faking my emotions in front of people so I always just come out honest. That's the only way people will learn to … Continue reading College Day 83 – Distraction
(November 7th, Saturday) Today: All day I was reevaluating my entire life. My thoughts were mostly focused on my choices and what to do with my major. I'm honestly clueless and lost. I just want to be a vessel to save others from the pain I've always suffered. Look where it's getting me. Sometimes I even … Continue reading College Day 82 – No Direction
(November 3rd, Tuesday) Today's intriguing thought: I'm not sure if you can call it an intriguing thought, but all day I was thinking about my major. Psychology hit me hard and now I have thoughts about taking courses on either English Literature or Psychology. I honestly am considering changing my major to Psychology because of how … Continue reading College Day 78 – A Major Change?
The depressed do not first deserve our prayers, they deserve our stories, experiences, and thoughts on depression. Sure you can begin to share your prayers with them, but why would you do that when you have so many more words at your disposal? You may be considerate enough to show concern through prayer, but if … Continue reading The depressed
What am I to do? There is 36 minutes left until July 1st. I want to make the most of my time so I can say this month was outstanding. I won't lie, it has been fairly great. As much as I want the time to go by and college to come around, I realize … Continue reading 37 minutes until July 1st
Inevitably we lose sight of time and reality It happens to the best of us (or worst) We fill the gaps with things that give and take our consciousness Reminding us of the pain we try so hard to fight Yet we know we cannot contain neutrality So we start over, intentionally losing sight.
If I could live off of poetry, I'd do it. Even for those who sit And stoically wish to quit.
You have lots to say, You're silent within, You think day by day; Though none may listen. Your thoughts arise, The time goes by; Who made the skies? When will I die? Were they to listen– Nay, they only speak, And the stars still glisten; It's not the answer you seek. On and on it … Continue reading Listen to me